Friday, June 5, 2009

To Be Continued...

In this week's episode of This Old MS Body there was a new collection of stupid MS symptoms. For some dumb reason my kneecaps and heels have gone numb. First, my kneecaps. What the puck? Why would they go numb? Its not like I spend a whole bunch of time on them, or do I? (Sorry, could not resist a crude joke there.) I first noticed that they would get all tingly for several hours, like they had fallen asleep. This progressed into numbness that now is constant and doesn't end after a few hours, dagnabbit! I thought, at first, when they would "go to sleep" for several hours that maybe I was putting pressure on them that I was not aware that I was doing. I didn't think an MS symptom would come and go like that, having only been subjected to non-waxing and waning problems. But on my last visit to my New And Improved Neurologist, she said that it was MS, and didn't try to tell me that it was something else -- how odd, still trying to get used to her new ways. It is kind of an annoying thing to have these numb kneecaps that tingle with any kind of touch. I'm hoping they wake up soon because it makes my legs feel like they have been cut in half and I'm worried it will spread. I've had numb legs, especially when I lost my right side, and it was not a hoot, contrary to popular belief.

Next, my heels. From my ankles into my heels -- just the heels -- is numb and painful. Why can't it just be one or the other? If something is numb it should not hurt, but apparently my CNS didn't get that memo, or if it did it wiped it's butt with the paper and tossed it aside. At first I thought I was walking different and putting more pressure than usual on my heels. But even in repose they hurt. In the summer I spend about 98.9936% of the time barefoot. My feet harden into hooves that do not look good in any kind of sandal or flip flop and I am not keen on horse shoes. I took care to walk right and looked for any kind of bruise on my heels, but, alas, there was nothing there, so I had to accept that it is my MS. I've had this problem before but it has been awhile, and I had hoped it was in the past. But just like an ex boyfriend that you would rather never see again, it popped up to annoy me once again. (Why do you never run into some one you wouldn't mind seeing again, and only see those you had hoped ate a fat d*ck and fell off the face of the earth?)

I wish they would cancel this show and bring back something better, like Welcome Back, Kotter, one of my favorites. But nooooo! Like all MS Gone Wild, it has to go on and on and on and on. I am tired of all these "To Be Continued" things and ready to see it end for good. What a dreamer I am! What fun would MS be if it did not continue? I'll keep you posted on how this show plays out...

4 comments:

heidi said...

Just stumbled across your blog and read the latest post. I must say that I know where you're coming from and really appreciate your dry, biting sense of humour (I sometimes think my sense of humour about it all is what keeps me sane). I also think (quite often) that I am so very ready to just 'get over' this disease. It could go away any time now and I certainly wouldn't complain!

Kimberly said...

Boy oh boy, Can I relate to the fire ant attack, heel burning, tingling, now it went to sleep...wait....I just can't feel it anymore, kind of daily experience. All I can say is hang in there. I wish I could say I knew something would help. If you find something that works let me know!

Denver Refashionista said...

I hope the numbness goes away soon. I familiar with the type of sensations you are describing but I am fortunate because my numbness has always been short lived. Sometimes it drives me crazy while I am waiting it out but ;uckily, it never seems to last long.

Jen said...

This has absolutely nothing to do with the current post: I enjoyed the pics from the "ghost town" from a few posts back. Would love to see more. I like to see others' worlds..